Job Satisfaction

I have the same thoughts every morning when my alarm wakes me up.
"malasnye"
mcm nak MC la..

Bila la nak rajin nie???
I wonder when will the time comes where I can say,
"Bestnye pegi keje"...
I guess tggu ade jejaka ensem mcm yg diatas dan dibawah ini???

Last night, I had a talk with my on n off 'sleepmate'..hihi..miss naddy (jgn mare)...nway, i terbocorkan rahsie lelaki idaman i..muahhahaha..being a straight woman, i rase xsalah kan if i say i have my own preference..though mostly my preference came from reading mills & boon n all the romances..(the lords and the lairds and the young misses and damsel in distress with their knight in shining armour;P)...

so basically what i said to her is:

"saya nak kahwin dgn hackers...geeky n nerdy but cute"

or if not

"a photographer:not any photographer, but the National Geographic/Discovery Channel type, where they took pictures of lions, volcanoes, lightnings..with a ruggedly looks"

hahaha
All in all...jangan tido lambat sangat, kan dah merapu?

I Want to Marry Bruno Mars

BOLEH???

[release me...the like]

I don't ask much...

All I ask,
respect...xpayah la nak cari kesalahan saya dlm setiap perbuatan dan perlakuan...

all I ask,
silence...xpayah la cakap banyak sangat...

all I ask,
loyalty and honesty...

am i asking too much???

pakcik maidin selalu pesan suruh jaga hati orang...
tapi hati saya sape yg jage???
xde kan???
kalau xnak jage takpe...
tapi jangan sakitkan boleh???

It is not a happy feeling...

It was gooey...clammy...n my heart beats like it never beats before...

It was wrong...

because i don't want it...

i want to feel nothing at this moment...

so that i wont feel d pain...

d pain...

d dissapoinment...

d frustation...

that comes with every single feeling...

currently stuck with a problem..ok, 2. ok more than i can count on...

but d most important thing...

i hope...

n

i pray to Allah s.w.t that they will come to their senses...