Kenape Perlu Tengok!

Kenape perlu tengok
HAntu Kak Limah Balik Rumah???


1. Sebab die BEST SANGAT2


2. Sebab die KLAKA SANGAT2


3. Sebab die penuh dgn sindiran yang mmg membuatkan kite terkesima dan terpikir


4. Walaupon luarannya nampak mcm merapu and serabut, tetapi penuh dgn hidden meaning yg sggh intelektual


5. Sebab shoot n guna BAHASA PERAK...
(awak org Perak!)


6. MAmat Khalid memang genius!!! Filem2 seperti Rock, MAn LAksa, Rombongan Che Kiah ke Komanwel, Zombie Xmengecewakan langsung! (Ini je filem die aku tgk)


7. Rase mcm mau tgk lagi!!!


8. Walaupon setiap kali KAk Limah keluar aku tutup mate (cuz aku tido sengsorg) tp nk gak tgk lagi cite ini!!! (aku xsuke tido sengsorg!!!)


9. Sangat2 sukekan watak si Usop bekas penari Kebudayaan itu!!!mmg mantap!



Sape belom tgk, sile tengok n support lah filem Melayu yg bermutu seperti ini!!! Xpayah nk ade keta2 laju, pompuan sexy...org kampung jek pon dah cukop bagus!!!

Saya Masih Disini

In a way, I should be grateful, right? Everything happens for a reason, and there must be a reason why I did not get the transfer. Now, for sure, 1oo percently, I know I will go on with the Master thing. Before this, I have doubts. Thinking what if I'm to be transferred to Penang or Kulim. Then it will quite far for me to go to KL every week.
But still I could not help but to shed a few tears. (more than a few actually!) I want to be closer to my father and sister. I hate sleeping alone at night (ok I now this is ridiculous;P)
The only thing that is making me ok here is my friends...
Other than that, NIL.


:(

Decisions

I don't know whether I am happy or not.

In a way, yes, I am happy. And I am lucky. Not everyone will got the chance.

But still, it's looking a little bit complicated here.

I want to be closer to my father. There is no doubt there. But it is not confirmed yet whether i'll get the transfer. What if i don't and all i do is to wait. I might be staying here for a verrry long time.I might get older without moving on, not doing anything worthwhile in this life? And if I refuse, and wait, I might not get another offer like this anymore.

But, am I ready for this? It will be hectic after this. And not to mention in financial wise. Obviously, I'm not ready in that area. But, when will i be ready if i keep waiting. KAN???

Owh, i wish someone can tell me what should do.

I wish someone can give me a good advice.

No.

I wish someone to make the decision for me.

So that one day I won't regret any of it.

Ya Allah, Kau berikanlah petunjuk pada hamba-Mu yang lemah lagi hina ini.

I Miss You

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera

What will be, will be.


This is a song my Mak used to sing for me. (in Tamil version of course).
I miss her. So much, that it hurts. It makes my heart ache. It makes me want to cry and never stop.
It's been a long time since someone hug me. I missed the warmth of her hug. Her sweet smell. In her hug, I know I'll always be safe.


I miss her.

Penang Bridge Marathon 2011, wait for me!!!

Me n Mas

Yeap, I did it. I managed to finish my 10km run in 1:42:51. That is something for someone like me! U know, not fit, beginner, not enough training. And I was only walking, though i walk non-stop.Yeah, that is something. I just exceed 12 mins 51 sec! And the best part is I'm not the last one to arrive! hehe...

Now, I'm excited to join more marathons. Hehe..even though my body ache all over (until now actually), muscles strain etc, but I still would love to do it! Though i'll practice and train more before going!

Going to Penang for the marathon is the moment i'll cherished always. There were a few doubting Thomas when I said i'm going for a marathon. It is quite funny when people are sceptical and so criticising for things even they don't do. Instead of saying 'mesti boleh', they were saying 'boleh ke'? Why?Just because i'm fat? That doesn't mean I can't do something at all! But I guess, that it is part of the fun kot??? People insulted you and you get the chance to show them wrong?

I would like to thank my friend and 'coach' Cik Mas for her support. Pas nie kite g lagi ye Mas :) Kenangan memori daun pisang meredah hujan sebelum nak marathon akan menjadi kenangan terindah. Walaupon not enough good looking guys for us to feed our eyes on (hehehe) but we still had fun! So much fun!


me after 7km...masih boleh tersenyum manja walaupon terketaq2... ;p


our beloved Lunarfly ;)

Now, I'm more excited to do stuffs. My resolution of doing things I've never done in my life still stands!

What is next?

i want to travel!!!

At late, the only thing that interest me is travel!Technically, aku tak travel mane pon lagi, but i really really reallllly want to travel, go to all those exotic places. A friend of mine, Cik Mas introduce me to a backpacker blog not to mention lonely planet!! (dgn malunye aku taktau lonely plaenet ade mags, slalu ingat kat tv jek!) and skarang, keje aku buka airasia n bercite2 nk travel around the world!Agak sukar untuk mengingatkan Miss FB supaye berpijak di bumi yg nyata..hehe..dahla duit dlm akaun Maybank xde kan (kalau nk beli tiket pon) n infact, she does not own a credit card!!
Adoi.....xde ke nak dapat cabutan bertuah menang 10 ribu ke??? (cukupla 10ribu, taknak banyak2 pon)...Ayayai!xpelah..selow2 dulu kn??(ayat sedap hati sendiri!)

My running bib no is K67093~

Running bib ape? you might ask. Well, I don't know whether i've mentioned here but resolution is to try things at least once in my life. And in 2 weeks time, I'm going for a marathon! Penang Bridge International Marathon 2010 to be exact!Am I up for it? NO! heehee :) I've started running (or walking to be more exact!) a couple of weeks ago and it is a torture!! After a long time of being lazy and FAT, my body; or more specifically my legs (ankle) are definitely having a hard time adjusting to this new routine. But I'm not giving up! Not even when I'm the last person to arrive! Hehe ;)

Well, I'm off to Taiping in few minutes. Did not plan to go back pon but I really miss my dad n my sister..Hehe..bile berjumpe gaduh..Bile jauh rindu :P

Why is it so hard for people to understand that I have needs as well.

Why some people have this kind of thinking where when they did not have something, I should not have it as well? I'm being impatient because I'm scared. What if I don't live to see tomorrow. What if there will be no chance for me to pursue my dreams. I just want to live my life. I am sorry if I'm not responsible enough. Or not responsible at all. I'm just tired living my life, waking up doing the same thing over and over. I am sorry that you don't understand me at all.

Why money must be everything???

I am physically and mentally exhausted.
......

I hate this feeling. And I hate that person. Saye menyampah.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

i have no words~
later k :)

"Love someone who loves you." -If u love someone, let them go. If they never come back, they were never yours...

So i decided that I'm letting go this feeling.
Because I realized, it is just an infatuation.
And even it is love, I'll still let it go.
Because I think you deserve someone better.
And I deserve someone who is not afraid.
Because when you stop saying words to me.
And when I stop giving you glances.
So I decided maybe this is not real.
...........
........
.....
...
..

So I decided that I'll pray for your happiness,
And in return hoping that you'll do the same
Because
It seems that
even though
we never speak with each other
Our hearts speak
and
decides
we should
let
go
.

Satu Ramadhan

Yeap..It's my first day of fasting today. Lupe plak berpuase, asyik bercakap jek. And now, i'm soooo thirsty eventhough it is just 12 pm. Alamak, lambat lagi ke berbuke?It's quite challenging sbb my cough is still there and going bad...huhu..so i guess x bolei le berbuke dgn ketulan ais yg enak itu!!!

My life is so chaotic at this moment. My head actually. Banyak sangat yang perlu difikirkan. Banyak sangat hati yang perlu dijaga. Kenapa xde sape nak jaga hati saye?Is it not worth to be take care off???

We embrace the flaws and faults of our love so that when they leave, we won't smile with regret...

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, Wish right now

B.O.B. ft Hayley Williams

I made a mistake when I make something out of nothing.
It was nothing.
Nothing to think at all.
Nothing to start with.
Nothing to end with.
I was in La La Land.
Me and stupid dreams.

Being Lonely

I need another story

Something to get off my chest

My life gets kinda boring

Need something that i can confess

Secret 'One Republic'

This is one of the self-pitying post. I just came back to Merlimau after 6 days break with my family at Taiping. And the only thing that creeping in my head is that 'I Hate It Here!' I feel so lonely even if I'm surrounded by many people. At home, eventhough it is just me and Dad, I felt happy and content.

.....

....

...

..

.

Or maybe I'm trying hard not to be lonely.

Maybe I just should live my life as it is.

I crave for adventurous and exotic life. (Blame it on all the novels I read)

Maybe I should accept the fact that my life is meant to be dull.

Fullstop.

......

....

...

..

.

I want to quit job and travel the world.

I

W

I

S

H

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for many things

and I'm definitely happy that this someone won't be around for a month. Nyah kau...hehe..Anyway, my 'bestfriend' came for a visit this afternoon so won't be fasting for the next 7 days. So sad because I was so looking forward to go to Tarawih this evening. Xde rezeki :(

I was so hoping that my 'bestfriend' won't be coming like the previous year where I don't have to go through the hassle of 'ganti pose' :) I guess this is for being so 'blagak' kan?hahaha...

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...

..

.

Well, I want to wish all our Muslim brothers and sisters a blessed Ramadhan. Semoga Ibadah kite diterime-Nya. Amin.

WishList

Saye mmg banyak wishlist! Hehe.. I want a lot of things in life. And one of them is to play tennis! I don't know why tapi teringin sangat sangat sangat nk main tenis. How I wish I have someone to tutor me! Yep, sy nk blajar main betul2. Bukan suke2. Tp skrg rase mcm dh tua sngat kalau baru stat nk blaja. Huhu..

Thank You

I could not help but to notice that I have a lot of people who cares about me. Especially about my weight! Funny thing that I never really try to spend my day thinking about how fat I am. I have other people to do it to me. See how lucky I am? Sometimes, the way they say it out loud bring tears to my eyes because I was touched with all the concerns. For example : "Eh, boleh masuk ke?" "Muat ke?"

I mean, where else you can find this kind of concerns?

I am blessed and very grateful for it.

F

A

T

and

L

O

V

I

N

G

IT!!!

XoXoXo

~P.H.A.T gal out~

Kenapa Hari Ini Sudah Isnin?

I have nothing against Monday. It is coming to work on Monday after a very very very short break that I have problem with. I have 3 classes on Monday. And pepagi buta nie one class manage to increase my blood pressure. I was never that rude when I was studying at Uni. You don't say 'tertido' dgn selamba badaknya when you were asked why you were absent...If I were to write about the moral of our student (and people around us these days, sampai tahun depan pon xabeh).

My weekend was tiring but good. I was involved in konvo after all! Huhu.. Menjadi penghulur sijil atas pentas. Xcomel pon terpaksa men'comel'kan diri! Haha..And then after that went for a movie with a couple of girlfriends. Watch The Sorcerer's Apprentice. It was quite boring and tasteless for me.Hehe..If you were talking about magic, why must have science?And the ending was so like Dragon Ball. And the Apprentice mcm lalok 24/7. I love Nicholas Cage though! He is brilliant!




The next day went for another movie with the same girlfriends ;) This time around we watched Salt. It was good! Better than Apprentice for me! Walaupon bnyk unsur2 'x blei tahan' but still bearable. It is pretty 'amazing' that jatuh atas trak but all the bones are still intact. One thing I like is that I never anticipate who's the badass was! And I hope there will be no sequel. Hehe.. Let it be left mysteriously!



Panjang la ngomel harini... There are few movies that I really really want to watch! Takers, Airbenders, The Expendables, The Other Guys. Erm, sesape nak pegi tue, bawak lah saye..Hehe..Saye tak kesah!!!

Till later..Daaaaa..

(erm ade meeting pukul 12..^yawn^..one more reason why I hate Monday!)

P/S: Thanks to my girlfriends...you know who you are:) Lenkali kite buat lagi ok? Muaaksss...

XoXoXo

TGIF

Sampai juga hari JUmaat yg mulia ini. Been waiting for it since last Sunday..hehe..Tiap2 minggu pon macam itu.So, what MY plan this weekend. Kemas bilik yg dah boleh sorok dinasour tue..hehe..very unimaginative tapi nak buat cemane. My housemate is involved with the Konvo and this time around I'm not. Thank God for that.. ;) Nak tgk The Sorcerer's Apprentice but on hold first. Nak g ngan sape kan? Anyone care to join me? Made a plan with a girlfriend but not sure yet...Rase mcm nk makan Auntie Annie's pretzel yg celop dlm ceklat tue..Nyum...

Had fun with a few of my opismate yesterday. Buka puase sesame (tp saye xpose!)..Quite full after a plateful of Nasi Ayam Penyet Lampongan and a glass of ayer asam boi..Double Yummy! Thanks for K.Sha, Mas and K.Diha. Thank you for making me laugh so hard. Muakss..XoXo ;P

I don't know what happened but I was quite happy when I woke up this morning. Of course, the feelings does not last long but still, i like it. It feels like all my dreams are coming true and all I have to do is wait. Feels like it will be a momentous day for me. Hehe..MAinan perasaan je tu. But I like the feeling. Tak kisah la kalau xbetul pon. It just make me feel goooood :)

"Oh yes, the past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it, or... learn from it." (dukun citer Lion King cakap nie).. And he is right! At this moment, i'm running from something instead of confronting the problem.Ayayai...where my guts dude?

Saye Tidak Suke

Banyak benda yg tidak saye suke berlaku kepade saye. (terutamanya akhir2 ini)

1) Saye tidak suke masuk campur tp org masuk campur kan saye.

2) Saye tidak suke perasaan ini, tp perasaan ini hadir jugak dlm diri saye ini.

3) Saye tidak suke mendengar tapi telinga ini terpaksa mendengar.

4) Saye tidak suke membayangkan, tetapi bayangan itu hadir jugak dlm diri saye ini.

5) Saye tidak suke, tidak suke, tidak suke dan tidak suke.

Very immature of me.

I know.

Tapi nak buat macam mana. This is the real me. I'm stupid. Foolish. Selfish. Immature. Childish. Ugly. Fat/P.H.A.T ;)

Care to add anything?

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On a different note, a few days back, i wrote an entry called Cloudy days. Googled for cloudy pictures and post it here. But at night, when I open this blog, the cloudy picture turn into a weird man face!!takut i. n dengan segeranya mendelete picture itu. Walawei. My blog is haunted kah??? Jangan la..Kat mana lagi nk luahkan perasaan karang..

I really want to go back home and stay with my dad T_T Miss him so much and i know he would love to have me there. (ke aku yg prasan?)..

"Love looks not with the eyes but with the mind."

Hurm, i didn't know what to make of you.

One minute you are friendly and the next minute you give me the cold shoulder.

P/S: The heading is a quote from Shakespeare. Wise man he was....

Cloudy Days

To be honest, it was not a good day for the past few days.
It feels like a dark cloud always following me everywhere.
I wish things will turn out differently.
Words are left unspoken.
No hard feelings.
But i can't.
All it left is for me to move forward.
And try to make sure everyone understand why it had happened.
And I hope for that sunny day.

not feeling well

Alhamdulillah. I had an uninterrupted sleep last night.Haven't got a good sleep since the paranormal thing. But woke up with an uneasiness. I'm not feeling good and well at this moment. Feels like vomiting. My head feels so heavy. My stomach is churning.

Hurm..Mahu diri di manja boleh?

Wishlist

One of my wishlist.

Anyone care to buy them for me?

Hehe;)

Dalam Mimpi Ada Mimpi Ada Lagi Mimpi Dan Lagi Ada Mimpi

This is one brilliant movie! Leonardo is a genius as usual and the other casts are awesome as well. Walaupon agak memeningkan but I still love it!!!!





Be

careful

what

you

dream

of
...............................................

and Friday is here...

Hurm..rajin plak nk berbelog 2-3 menjak nie..nk kate idea mencurah2 x..but I guess there are a lot of things that I want to say... and yet there are lot of things that I could not put in words...Matter of heart is so heavy to think of. So painful. So confusing.

Enough talking about my heart.Hehe..Eventually, it wiil worn out and then I can live normally. (ye ke?)

'

Friday is here...Will have a quiet weekend. Doing laundry. Relaxing. Nothing much..Really want to watch Inception but no want to watch with..Xpelah..Never know what will happen, right?

Venus Girl

I miss my friend.
Haven't talk with her for months.
Haven't seen her for more than months.
I know she is busy with her new life.
Exam is coming.
She has a lot to learn.
I shouldn't bother her.
I miss the old time.
Where we use to write to each other.
I know we don't have much time with each other.
Our perspective change as we grow up.
You, for the better.
And I... :)
Well,
I have said it.
I miss my friend.
You know who you are Venus Girl:)
Good luck in your new career.
My thoughts are always with you.

to all my friends..i love u guys too..u make my life hundred times better :)

The Sixth Sense

Apparently, the whole polytechnic is attacked by paranormal activities. And for me who is staying at the kuarters tu, memacam ler citer yg kuar.

Haven't got a decent sleep since last week. My head feel heavy. And not to mention my cranky mood. Haish..

Yesterday, I woke up at midnight and did not sleep unti 4.30 am. Adeh. I wish I can call someone to talk to because I felt lonely as well. But everyone that I know I can call is sleeping and it will be selfish of me if I bother them.

Takpelah. I will try my best to stay strong. And I can only pray to Allah S.W.T hoping for the best and mintak jauhkan dari gangguan syaitan ini. Amin.


Rasulullah s.a.w memerintahkan daku dengan bersabda: "Hendaklah engkau memohon perlindungan Allah daripada angkara syaitan-syaitan manusia dan jin". Aku pun meminta penjelasan Baginda s.a.w, dengan berkata: "Ya Rasulullah! Adakah manusia juga menjadi syaitan-syaitan?" Baginda menjawab: "Ya! Benar!".
Abu Zar r.a

Parenthood

These day, I enjoyed watching Parenthood. (Since Glee finished it's final episode for Season 1-could not wait for Season 2!). Anyway, back to Parenthood, as usual, Miss FB here sah2 will be attracted to one of the guy in that drama kan!

.

Mr Cyr:walaupon hanya guest but still can make me swoon when he is trying to pursue Sarah Braverman..
(lurrvve his scruffy look~)

Yup..my entry today is only about how smitten I am with his role in this drama..Muahahaha:)

Being Silly

Romancing Mr Bridgerton by Julia Quinn is one of my favourite. I always compare myself with Penelope Featherington, the heroine of this book. She is a wallflower, unpopular and the one they say will never marry. She is, by the society standard, not beautiful (ugly sound so harsh) and a confirmed spinster. And yes, that how i look myself

In this book, Penelope loves Colin Bridgerton for a long time. Unfortunately, he took a long time as well to return the feeling. But when he did, he do it right. It is no suprise if I say that I'm waiting for my own Colin Bridgerton. Someone who looks me in the eye and said

"I don't know. I don't know when, I don't know how, and to be honest, I don't care. But i know this much is true: I love you, and I hate myself for not seeing the real you all these years."

This is a wistful thinking from my part. Huhu..I know there is no Mr Bridgerton who will say

"I don't think you changed. At least not very much.But then one day I realized I was seeing something different when I looked at you. Maybe I changed.Maybe I grew up."

I know I'm being silly. But I think being silly is the best thing I do. Anyhow, as much as it is a fairy tale, I still love this book very much. After all Penelope have been through, she deserves it.

And for me?

It's ok.

We never know right?

Maybe MY Mr Bridgerton is right in front of me and I did not notice it.

Hehe.

It's Ok. Take your time.

Like Penelope, I'll be waiting ;)

~The Kite Runner~

Stay up late last night, reading The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. The book moves me deeply, differs from the books I usually interested with. Different from all the romances and happily ever after.It awakens me like no other. Hassan's love and loyalty to Amir makes me cry. I could not escaped the sob and tears and wonder, is there anyone out there who will sacrifice that much in the name of friendship? In the name of love? The world seems so cruel and unfair. That Hassan's son meet the same fate as his father, with the same evil man. I know I'm a little late, where the rest of the world have read the book a few years back! But I'm glad that I read this book. Cleanse me in a way nobody will understand. Open my eyes to the world far away. Where here I broad over petty matters, the world out there is suffering from disease worst than death. Greed, lust is taking over humanity. And I will try my best not to fall in the same web. Insya Allah.

Ya Allah, Kau berikanlah kekuatan kepada hambaMu ini. Amin.

Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda yang bermaksud:”Bukankah aku telah memberitahu kamu semua tentang orang yang diharamkan masuk ke neraka atau orang yang diharamkan ke atasnya neraka? Mereka ialah orang yang berdamping rapat dengan orang ramai (baik pergaulannya), hatinya tenang, berlemah lembut serta mudah dibawa berunding.”

Riwayat at-Tarmizi

Hurt dan Benci

I'm tired being stuck with inconsiderate people. It's about time i stop being a people pleaser. I'm tired of people who treat me like a heartless statue. I have feelings ok. If you can be sensitive when someone did something, i do too. The world does not only revolve around you.

Being Greedy

I know i should be grateful with what i have now. I have a family that i love (though maybe i don't show it much), i have a job (though i dislike it-hate is a strong word) , every end of the month i got my salary and manage to buy things that i like (mostly books), i have friends (thank GOD for friends), i have people who hates me (and vice versa). So all in all, i should be happy or at least content with what i am now.

But no, i have to be greedy and being content is not enough for me. i want drama, excitement, love,lust. I am greedy.

On the happier note, i finally got my car license. Hehe, it took me more than 3 years actually. But to tell the truth, I'm not confident enough to drive. It seems so complicated. .

X Reti Nak Menjala

Today, Miss FB woke up at 5.30 am to cook roti jala and kari ayam! Hehe..terlebih rajin kan. Sebab tu nak punch pon lagi seminit pukul 8! Berlari2 jugak la!Alhamdulillah, skrg dah kenyang. Tapi bile dah kenyang, mengantuk lah pulak:)

Cooking Frenzy

Erm..bukan nye saye main game ye tp skrang Miss FB nie suke sangat cari resepi n nak masak. Huhhuhu...Nak kate sedap sangat tak le..hehe..Today i brought Puding Oreo to the opis..erm, boleh la..though i still think here is something i can do to make it better. I'd copy a lot of recipes!! Tggu nak buat je..Yg susah nye sbb i don't have an oven..Nak beli, xde pulus!!Huhu..xpela..we will see how long this cooking season will last!!

How to Deal With Annoying People

Itu tajuk baru buku aku. In the process of researching for the facts and details. Because people, can be really damn Annoying and Irritating!

oWh...BOSAN~

Bosan..Yup, that's the right word to describe my feelings right now. It's been one whole day of spent doing nothing.Well, not actually nothing. Fill my time by downloading songs for my new 'baby'..thehehe..
Reach Merlimau this morning at 1am. So obviously i'm soooo sleepy.... Seronoknye balik rumah. I wish my holiday will be longer but need to save my leaves..Banyak lagi cuti nak diambil..Spend the time by helping PakCik Maidin at the kitchen, lazying around (the best part!), watched Alice in Wonderland (Johny Depp sure makes our live inriguing, eh?) and bought a new ...

n yes..in pink!!hehe...
Next week, students naik cuti..malasnyer...urgh..

WewEWewE

It's hard to find my creative outlet this days..Days spent gazing at the PC, waiting for the food to cook(yup, i can play Cafe World now!), marking the quizzes which is A LOT! or sometimes, thinking why the world is acting like this. Everyday, I vow to myself not think about anything that can make me mad or annoyed. But I am a normal human. I'm no angel.

Today, I have a "pengacaraan Majlis" course. Why on earth, someone who is terrified even thinking about standing at the front join this kind of course? Well, I really want to improve myself. I'm tired being a coward. I always dream of being worldly and say things without worrying to much on it. I just want to be FREE. I'm not saying that I had improved, but I'm learning. I'm far away from being perfect, but I'll try....

I'm going back tonight! Yeay

...Home sWeeT Home...
Happy HoLiDay y'aLL

Just finish with my DEM6 class. This heat make both me an the whole class in no mood of studying. Alahai. How is that so? Pensyarah nye 2x5 je... I really need to do something fast so that they won't loose interest..Macam mane nie??Ayayai..Miss FB menemui jalan buntu!

Daring Myself to Speak

Went to a public speaking course yesterday called Dare to Speak! Those who know me well, knows how suck i am when it comes to public speaking. I really don't know where all the nervousness come from. Anyway, this course is a continuation from my pronunciation course that i went with Leen. But this time around, there were 21 of us(Toastmasters club members). All of us have to speak about ourselves and of course, yours truly here freeze before she have to speak.

PMM Toastmasters Club( missing a few members there) with En Azmi Shahrin, our trainer.

Sleepy

~Miss FB is sleepy~
nak balik rumah, kelas pukul 2.
tidak mempunyai maya untuk ke kelas.
drowsy.

Beyond relief. Happy? Of course..I've been thinking very hard how to approach the bos about my duty as the lab supervisor, the bos came to me and said about releasing me from my asset duty. And then I realized, this is the time.So I told him I want to stick with my asset duty and release the lab. And he agreed!!I'm so happy!!!What the big deal anyway, some might think. But it is to me. I don't think that I'm the suitable person for it. And some other stuffs as well. Anyway, I just want to focus with what I have to right now. Next week, teaching and learning process will begin. I hope I can cope with it and still do other stuffs that I enjoy doing. Hurm, I don't think my weekend will be as good as anyone else. Both days are packed and I will for sure be so tired :(

Ok.I have to admit, one of the reason why i did not update my blog is this.

And now, it has been blocked. Quite stressed up because this thing had been an outlet for me to release my stress. But in the other hand, it's a good thing because i can focus on my mounting workload.. This MQA MQF thingy really makes it harder for everything else. No more taking questions from the SPM book..:) Tomorrow ade exam. Exam aper?hehe, takmau kasitau lagi. Kalau lulus baru nak kasitau. Kalau tak, malu!!!

Kembali

I'm back to the arena:) Not going to state the obvious by saying it's been quite a while (so cliche kan?) hehe.. i've been around, lots of thing happens for the past few months that i don't know where to start. So i decided not to write any of it:) Penat la..Lagipon, cerite lame. Kite tutup buku. Lets open a new book and this will be my first chapter! Boleh? It is 11th of January and it is not to late to say Happy New Year!! New Year resolution? Well, i don't really make it a habit to wait for a year to start on something new. If you want to do something, just do it and get it done. Betul tak?

Classes will start next week. Have to teach the semester 2 and 6 students this semester. It is funny when i 've to teach students to write resume when me myself never ever written a resume before. Or application letter. Hurm, banyak lah jugak benda yg Miss FB xpandai!!!

Owh yeah, one more thing. I've to join the Toastmasters club where basically it is about talking..Miss FB speaking in public?hurm, i can predict my future when it come to public speaking. I got nervous. Then i'll keep rolling my eyes. Then i'll start saying something stupid. Argghhh...Not to mention i'm the secretary of the club. Saye xpandai buat minit. I have a short attention span. I'm a bad listener. Nice:)

I will try my best to do all this thing coming to me. Dah name pon keje makan gaji kan? I just hope people won't judge me so much if I make a mistake. Though, to think about it, I'm the only who is doing the judging here.

I want to be free

P/S: One of the reason of me updating is for you my friend NazLin:) See, i didn't curse at all.