Let me talk to the moon

To talk is easy,

but to know whether it is right is hard.

It is easy to talk without having any regards of others.

It is easy to hurt people with words.

Because words are easy and cheap.

And you have been very cheap with your words when you are around me.

Call me sensitive.

Call me silly.

But I am hurt.

By mere words.

Today is a hard day. Called home several time. Konon nya to ease my father's mind. More like easing mine. A hard day for us. We miss her so much. SO many things happened without her. If she is here today, she will be 61. In two days time, 11 years has gone without her. 11 years without her sharing our joy and tears .How can I survive the next 11??How long can I hide behind my stupid jokes and laugh?

Miss

Mak

soooo

much.

:(

Al-Fatihah.

Job Satisfaction

I have the same thoughts every morning when my alarm wakes me up.
"malasnye"
mcm nak MC la..

Bila la nak rajin nie???
I wonder when will the time comes where I can say,
"Bestnye pegi keje"...
I guess tggu ade jejaka ensem mcm yg diatas dan dibawah ini???

Last night, I had a talk with my on n off 'sleepmate'..hihi..miss naddy (jgn mare)...nway, i terbocorkan rahsie lelaki idaman i..muahhahaha..being a straight woman, i rase xsalah kan if i say i have my own preference..though mostly my preference came from reading mills & boon n all the romances..(the lords and the lairds and the young misses and damsel in distress with their knight in shining armour;P)...

so basically what i said to her is:

"saya nak kahwin dgn hackers...geeky n nerdy but cute"

or if not

"a photographer:not any photographer, but the National Geographic/Discovery Channel type, where they took pictures of lions, volcanoes, lightnings..with a ruggedly looks"

hahaha
All in all...jangan tido lambat sangat, kan dah merapu?

I Want to Marry Bruno Mars

BOLEH???

[release me...the like]

I don't ask much...

All I ask,
respect...xpayah la nak cari kesalahan saya dlm setiap perbuatan dan perlakuan...

all I ask,
silence...xpayah la cakap banyak sangat...

all I ask,
loyalty and honesty...

am i asking too much???

pakcik maidin selalu pesan suruh jaga hati orang...
tapi hati saya sape yg jage???
xde kan???
kalau xnak jage takpe...
tapi jangan sakitkan boleh???

It is not a happy feeling...

It was gooey...clammy...n my heart beats like it never beats before...

It was wrong...

because i don't want it...

i want to feel nothing at this moment...

so that i wont feel d pain...

d pain...

d dissapoinment...

d frustation...

that comes with every single feeling...

currently stuck with a problem..ok, 2. ok more than i can count on...

but d most important thing...

i hope...

n

i pray to Allah s.w.t that they will come to their senses...

Kenape Perlu Tengok!

Kenape perlu tengok
HAntu Kak Limah Balik Rumah???


1. Sebab die BEST SANGAT2


2. Sebab die KLAKA SANGAT2


3. Sebab die penuh dgn sindiran yang mmg membuatkan kite terkesima dan terpikir


4. Walaupon luarannya nampak mcm merapu and serabut, tetapi penuh dgn hidden meaning yg sggh intelektual


5. Sebab shoot n guna BAHASA PERAK...
(awak org Perak!)


6. MAmat Khalid memang genius!!! Filem2 seperti Rock, MAn LAksa, Rombongan Che Kiah ke Komanwel, Zombie Xmengecewakan langsung! (Ini je filem die aku tgk)


7. Rase mcm mau tgk lagi!!!


8. Walaupon setiap kali KAk Limah keluar aku tutup mate (cuz aku tido sengsorg) tp nk gak tgk lagi cite ini!!! (aku xsuke tido sengsorg!!!)


9. Sangat2 sukekan watak si Usop bekas penari Kebudayaan itu!!!mmg mantap!



Sape belom tgk, sile tengok n support lah filem Melayu yg bermutu seperti ini!!! Xpayah nk ade keta2 laju, pompuan sexy...org kampung jek pon dah cukop bagus!!!

Saya Masih Disini

In a way, I should be grateful, right? Everything happens for a reason, and there must be a reason why I did not get the transfer. Now, for sure, 1oo percently, I know I will go on with the Master thing. Before this, I have doubts. Thinking what if I'm to be transferred to Penang or Kulim. Then it will quite far for me to go to KL every week.
But still I could not help but to shed a few tears. (more than a few actually!) I want to be closer to my father and sister. I hate sleeping alone at night (ok I now this is ridiculous;P)
The only thing that is making me ok here is my friends...
Other than that, NIL.


:(

Decisions

I don't know whether I am happy or not.

In a way, yes, I am happy. And I am lucky. Not everyone will got the chance.

But still, it's looking a little bit complicated here.

I want to be closer to my father. There is no doubt there. But it is not confirmed yet whether i'll get the transfer. What if i don't and all i do is to wait. I might be staying here for a verrry long time.I might get older without moving on, not doing anything worthwhile in this life? And if I refuse, and wait, I might not get another offer like this anymore.

But, am I ready for this? It will be hectic after this. And not to mention in financial wise. Obviously, I'm not ready in that area. But, when will i be ready if i keep waiting. KAN???

Owh, i wish someone can tell me what should do.

I wish someone can give me a good advice.

No.

I wish someone to make the decision for me.

So that one day I won't regret any of it.

Ya Allah, Kau berikanlah petunjuk pada hamba-Mu yang lemah lagi hina ini.