Decisions

I don't know whether I am happy or not.

In a way, yes, I am happy. And I am lucky. Not everyone will got the chance.

But still, it's looking a little bit complicated here.

I want to be closer to my father. There is no doubt there. But it is not confirmed yet whether i'll get the transfer. What if i don't and all i do is to wait. I might be staying here for a verrry long time.I might get older without moving on, not doing anything worthwhile in this life? And if I refuse, and wait, I might not get another offer like this anymore.

But, am I ready for this? It will be hectic after this. And not to mention in financial wise. Obviously, I'm not ready in that area. But, when will i be ready if i keep waiting. KAN???

Owh, i wish someone can tell me what should do.

I wish someone can give me a good advice.

No.

I wish someone to make the decision for me.

So that one day I won't regret any of it.

Ya Allah, Kau berikanlah petunjuk pada hamba-Mu yang lemah lagi hina ini.