Wah...lamenye Miss FB xupdate..i've been a busy lil bee la..buzzing here and there. I've been attending four courses 4 d past few weeks. And i'm kinda tired these days. Lack of sleep?or just worrying to much? Anyway, let me just summarize all d courses k?

15-18 Jun 2009
Port Dickson, N9
Microsoft Access

Isn't just beautiful? I always wanted to work somewhere near the sea. It is so peaceful just to listen to the sound of waves and sitting there looking at the water. Hurm..But, unfortunately, i'm stuck here at this godforsaken palm estate. Don't like it even a bit.

The course was ok. Enjoy it in fact!Iyelah, I'll admit i'm not good when it comes to IT stuffs. But suprisingly, i did good. Hurm, I do have some talent after all..hehe.

20-21 Jun 2009

Damansara
The Right Sound

Me and Leen..Lagu Black & White MJ memang seswai utk kami 2..heh

Whoa..haven't realize that i've been saying words wrongly all these years! Shows how ignorant i was, eh?Went there with Hazelen and sempat berjumpe kawan lame, Jemah kat OU. Kind creepy when we have to stay at a place called Romeo Inn Hotel. IIeeww..

22-23 Jun 2009

Politeknik Merlimau (bleargh)

Bengkel Pemurnian FRP

Haha..obviously the most boring one la!!

30 Jun-3 Julai 2009

Kuala Lumpur

Effective Presentation Skill

Sadly to say my presentation skill did not improve at all upon returning from the course.. Quite boring as well. If not for the cute guy from PSAS, lalala~

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At this moment, all the midgets in PMM JPA is working very hard for the debate competiton.Even yours truly is struggling with tonnes of workloads.But in a way,Ms FB xkisah. Y? Because all the work kinda make her forget all the silly problems with stupid peoples. For a while. Not entirely forget ok.

Talking about stupid people, seriouly? Y can't u just be honest and say directly to my face (or Bella's) that u r moving out from this house?Seriously, it seems a little bit cowardly la in my way of thinking.. At first aku xkisah sangat sebab Miss FB dah dinasihati oleh Pakcik Maidin.And Miss FB memang dengar cakap Pakcik Maidin. But, her behavior macam intolerable la kan...Aish..ini membuatkan Miss FB makin teruja untuk get the hell out from here.


I never realize that i'll be mising home so much.. Kalau nak dikire ayer mata Miss FB sejak di Merlimau ni, memang lebey dari cukup untuk buat hantaran meminang Puteri Gunung Ledang.Oleh itu, saya berharap induksi saya akan dapat dengan segera n saya boleh memulakan urusan penukaran pada hujung tahun ini.Amin. Wishful thinking?Maybe. Tapi xsalah berharap dan berusaha kan?


Next week dah start class. Agak nervous actually.Iyelah. No more taking over classes from someone else. I'm teaching the semester 1 students. Nk kena wat garang2 cket..hehe. Insya Allah, segala proses pengajaran dan pembelajaran berjalan dgn lancar. Amin.




Well, banyak dah merapu..Till then~

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Argh..sampai je Merlimau terus ada masalah!! What the ****??

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Having a terrible headache n c0uld n0t c0me out with a title..off to PD next week.seri0usly xde m0od.huhu.
Im updating my bl0g using my cellph0ne.. pathetic.al0ne n a l0nely weekend. Just finish prangatkan sambal ikan bilis dlm tin 4 lunch. D0uble pathetic.

P/s:Echipsey,i kn0e i've been a lil overdramatic in my last entry. C0uld n0t help it.i'm dat kind of pers0n;-)
:Inas,blaja btul2 camne nk wat kek.

Pissed Off

I really hate it here. I know it sounds childish..but i don't care!! I REALY REALLY hate it here..

This week has been disappointing. And it is not even Friday yet! I cried like a baby twice this week. Memang huduh la.But what else can i do? I feel so lonely. It feels like I'm the only one occupying this planet. Or maybe i'm not even here.

Yesterday event was terrible. When she said she gave in for my sake, i was like, WTF? Wasn't I supposed to go at the first place. Couple months ago, when we were filling the form, who's name was in it?So why everything have been synchronized as in I was to be blame. Pardon me if I was obvious in showing my distress and 'kebengangan'. I'm just tired being treat like a dirt, as if the very breath i exhale is polluted. Was i selfish?If I do, please do tell me..

I

really

really

hate

it

here

It's a pity that my first working environment sucks.

I really want to go home, or least work somewhere closer to my family.

I'm suffocating in my own thoughts.

i'm drowning in my loneliness.

Lonely.

Inas, aku tau u will get mad at me for this entry. Sorry, i just need to wallow in my self pity.

Minggu nie all the bosses is not in. Minggu punch tuk kawan2. I don't mind. If live closer, i'll definitely do the same!! Instead of coming to office and playing games, I better stayed at home and do all the mounting laundries.

The administration of Polytechnic Merlimau sucks!!Ptui....

Back...

I'm back at this godforsaken place :( i know, i know.. I should at least give a credit to this place but at this moment i could not find any good thing about this place (or the people as the matter of fact)Banyak yang buruk lah dari baiknye..

Well, enuf about this place..

Lets talk about my 8days off..I went back to Tepeng with a night bus. Sejuknye..Burrr..I spent mostly of my time at home, spending time with PakCik Maidin n my sister..And of coz shopping and watching movies..Xsempat jumpe sesapon except at Linda's wedding. Went there with the usual comrades; Inas, Ayu and Dayah. Pepon, Selamat Pengantin Baru Linda, semoga perkahwinan mu kekal ke anak cucu.. Hehe..i couldn't imagine her pregnant!!

Bersame pengantin baru dan rakan2 Miss FB iaitu Inas n Ayu. Tiada dalam gambar Dayah n her new beau.Xpelah, die xbaca blog aku pon. Xkecik ati kot..hehe

Mesti orang2 kat Tepeng Sentral ingat Miss FB xde keje..Hehe..Apepon Miss FB nak lepas gian cuz da lama tak tengok wayang..adela kat 2bulan. Dah xde sape nak temankan Miss FB kat cni.Huhu..And the important fact is that everytime I walk out from the cineplex, i fell in lurrvvee..hehe.

Doesn't matter that he is half human

Doesn't matter that he is the bad guy

Doesn't matter that he has a pointy ears

What matter most is that they all are HOT ..hehehe.

I really love the new Star Trek. macam nak tgk lagi skali. Tapi dah balik sini sape nak bawak?

Sekembalinye Miss FB ke opis, die terkejut la plak..it feels like a graveyard here..Ramai plak yang takde including the bosses.Nak buat karaoke ke dangdut ke mesti lepas..

Criusly, I feel like banging my head at the wall..

I also feel so lonely these days. Even though there are people around me. Why?

And i really dislike this one particular person..Urgh..

Miss FB baru balik dari Jasin..makan KFC. Naik Keta Stream pinjam Letchumi..hehe..Brase 'perak' cket naik keta besau neh ;-p

Monday Blues

I feel so lazy today. I'm a lazy person but today I'm lazier than usual.And my head kept spinning around.. Malas nye nak wat statistik ni. Dahla Math SPM lulus biase je..numbers is my enemy, except for money la kan..Erm, talking bout money, it's pay day today.I still haven't check my account yet. Hopefully, i will get my pay this month. Dahla nak balik Tepen this week and all plans has been made. Kalu xdapat gaji, for sure Miss FB terjun bangunan.
My weekend was quite productive. Guess what i did? For the very first time, i went for a cooking class! We went to Kolej Komuniti Jasin and paid only RM10. And +++, the chef was super duper hot.hehe.Itu yang productivenyer..Besides that, we went to Astana Moda, looking for baju raye.. We plan to go again tomoro cuz the sale started from 26/5-14/6...Hurm..mesti macam ayer je $$ Miss FB abey nanti.
And today, Leen and i wore the same baju kurung!!


Today thoughts::Miss FB nak minta tukau balik secepat mungkin ke kampung halaman. Is it possible?

Update:Gaji aku xmasyuk lagi ;( Bangunan mane paling tinggi kat PMM ni??

Late at night Part 2

I'm still here..Dah tak larat wat keje..Waiting for them to finish up..Miss FB needs her beauty sleeps la wei...

Gambo comey ini hasil sahabatku Venus Gal..yes..i'm homesick....

poker face

It's been 6 weeks now. For some reason i'm still standing and breathing. hehe. I'm still having backache after standing for hours furing the convocation days. It was a horrible week. Started with i do not own a blazer and manusia manusia mcm sh^t membingitkan telinga dan menghangatkan hati Miss FB yang fragile ini.. Nak buat macam mane. Aku kan P.H.A.T..Mane nak pinjam blazer yang size aku ni.. Grr.. Nasib aku pandai wat poker face...

Minggu ini juga membuatkan Miss FB sudah master in cursing and swearing and i'm sure by the time i leave Merlimau for good, i can sell a dictionary on fuc*ing.
Aish. I just realize I'm not getting good but a lot worse than before. Mulut pun..kalau PakCik Maidin dengar mau dicilinye.huhu.

Do I like it here?
No.
Y?
Macam sial.
Y?
I just don't like it ok!

Anyway, i do have some good friends here. Nak sebut name? Well Kak Fid, Kak As. Zati@Letchumi, Yani(i call her Ma cuz i said i want her to be my stepmother..hehe.simpangkan lah :) ), also my huhaha new friend Fazila@Arabella. hehe. i still love name calling. Ape agaknye orang panggil aku?haha..But at this moment i asked them to call me Baby..hehe.(poyo gile) Anyway, best kawan ngan mereka2 ini. Don't have any pics yet cuz didn't bring my cam from taiping..They are very helpful to me. Iyelah, Miss FB ni kan agak clumsy, clueless, lembab etc...

Talking bout Taiping, a couple of weeks ago, ayahku terchenta called and start to talk about marriage.And Miss FB started to freak out. I'm not ready for it yet. I rather be an old maid than marrying someone just for the sake of not being andartu.huh!
At this moment i'm totally broke. One of the 'funny' things happened this month is me alone didn't get my pay this month.Lawak x?Macam sh^t la wei..aku sorang tak dapat..Memang la bulan ni dpt bergande, hutang pon bergande lah!!!

Well.It's already 10.40pm. My stomach is grumbling. Today me and Arabella cook for the first. Elok nak goreng keropok petang tuh, gas plak abey. Wa la wei.baru jek nak rajin. We came to office with our Head of Unit.. Nampak cam Pn S banyak keje..bile boleh balik?? hehe..tak kisah pon..aku pon lame tak jumpe computer yang ade tenet..muahaha....Aish..I wonder whether I will have the guts to drive myself?? I need to control my fear instead of the other way around.

Aish..dah lame x merapu..Better start doing my PB..hehe..


P/S: I would like to wish Happy Mother's Day to my beloved Dad. Y??Because he heve been a wonderful MOM n DAD to me for the past 9 years. I Heart You Atta..hehe
P/S: I miss my Mom..aish..to tell the truth, i dreaded this day.

so many thing , so little time..

Unfortunately, i still do not have a table, a computer, internet connections and segale macam..What i have is a lot of classes, things to do..etc. Nak update blog pon terpakse menumpang kasih orang a.k.a buat muka x malu minjam org nye comp..
This is my third week here. n i already lost interest in everything..~sigh~ I vowed to myself before to accept everything that The Almighty have given me. I even welcomed boredom. But now, i need some spices. I want adventures, betrayal, and basically anything to make me feel alive. (cuz at this moment i'm not). I'm still searching for the purpose...
and i'm definitely rambling eh?
Lots of thing to tell but i'm still having a writer's block. It is getting pronounced day by day. I lost the only little talent i have, that is to write :(




p/s: Went for a new staff induction n guess what one of the thing that a goverment servant should not do??
To blog...hurm~~~

saya mahu pulang..

civilization..
finally found a computer with internet connection..i seriously want to go home... i doubted every second i'm here.maybe i should stick being a teacher..i could hardly understand what they were saying.
daddy, aku mahu pulang!!!