Pissed Off

I really hate it here. I know it sounds childish..but i don't care!! I REALY REALLY hate it here..

This week has been disappointing. And it is not even Friday yet! I cried like a baby twice this week. Memang huduh la.But what else can i do? I feel so lonely. It feels like I'm the only one occupying this planet. Or maybe i'm not even here.

Yesterday event was terrible. When she said she gave in for my sake, i was like, WTF? Wasn't I supposed to go at the first place. Couple months ago, when we were filling the form, who's name was in it?So why everything have been synchronized as in I was to be blame. Pardon me if I was obvious in showing my distress and 'kebengangan'. I'm just tired being treat like a dirt, as if the very breath i exhale is polluted. Was i selfish?If I do, please do tell me..

I

really

really

hate

it

here

It's a pity that my first working environment sucks.

I really want to go home, or least work somewhere closer to my family.

I'm suffocating in my own thoughts.

i'm drowning in my loneliness.

Lonely.

Inas, aku tau u will get mad at me for this entry. Sorry, i just need to wallow in my self pity.

Minggu nie all the bosses is not in. Minggu punch tuk kawan2. I don't mind. If live closer, i'll definitely do the same!! Instead of coming to office and playing games, I better stayed at home and do all the mounting laundries.

The administration of Polytechnic Merlimau sucks!!Ptui....