lagu paling PATHETIC di MUKA BUMI INI

I will NEVER wait!!! i don't want to be the second best (or third, or fourth , or....) I find this song is demeaning to women...Ku menunggu kau putus dengan kekasihmu???Isn't that is already a prayer..Doakan orang lain merana hanya sebab kau merana???... I know it's just a song but ye pon, dah xde lirik lain ke??? Ku berharap kau berbahagia dgn kekasihmu ka... Ku menunggu lelaki yang baik sepertimu ka...

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Let's not talk about the Ella controversy or the catchy tune which makes u wanna la la la. lala lala lala....

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ok..emo plak :)

Let me talk to the moon

To talk is easy,

but to know whether it is right is hard.

It is easy to talk without having any regards of others.

It is easy to hurt people with words.

Because words are easy and cheap.

And you have been very cheap with your words when you are around me.

Call me sensitive.

Call me silly.

But I am hurt.

By mere words.

Today is a hard day. Called home several time. Konon nya to ease my father's mind. More like easing mine. A hard day for us. We miss her so much. SO many things happened without her. If she is here today, she will be 61. In two days time, 11 years has gone without her. 11 years without her sharing our joy and tears .How can I survive the next 11??How long can I hide behind my stupid jokes and laugh?

Miss

Mak

soooo

much.

:(

Al-Fatihah.

Job Satisfaction

I have the same thoughts every morning when my alarm wakes me up.
"malasnye"
mcm nak MC la..

Bila la nak rajin nie???
I wonder when will the time comes where I can say,
"Bestnye pegi keje"...
I guess tggu ade jejaka ensem mcm yg diatas dan dibawah ini???

Last night, I had a talk with my on n off 'sleepmate'..hihi..miss naddy (jgn mare)...nway, i terbocorkan rahsie lelaki idaman i..muahhahaha..being a straight woman, i rase xsalah kan if i say i have my own preference..though mostly my preference came from reading mills & boon n all the romances..(the lords and the lairds and the young misses and damsel in distress with their knight in shining armour;P)...

so basically what i said to her is:

"saya nak kahwin dgn hackers...geeky n nerdy but cute"

or if not

"a photographer:not any photographer, but the National Geographic/Discovery Channel type, where they took pictures of lions, volcanoes, lightnings..with a ruggedly looks"

hahaha
All in all...jangan tido lambat sangat, kan dah merapu?

I Want to Marry Bruno Mars

BOLEH???

[release me...the like]

I don't ask much...

All I ask,
respect...xpayah la nak cari kesalahan saya dlm setiap perbuatan dan perlakuan...

all I ask,
silence...xpayah la cakap banyak sangat...

all I ask,
loyalty and honesty...

am i asking too much???

pakcik maidin selalu pesan suruh jaga hati orang...
tapi hati saya sape yg jage???
xde kan???
kalau xnak jage takpe...
tapi jangan sakitkan boleh???

It is not a happy feeling...

It was gooey...clammy...n my heart beats like it never beats before...

It was wrong...

because i don't want it...

i want to feel nothing at this moment...

so that i wont feel d pain...

d pain...

d dissapoinment...

d frustation...

that comes with every single feeling...

currently stuck with a problem..ok, 2. ok more than i can count on...

but d most important thing...

i hope...

n

i pray to Allah s.w.t that they will come to their senses...

Kenape Perlu Tengok!

Kenape perlu tengok
HAntu Kak Limah Balik Rumah???


1. Sebab die BEST SANGAT2


2. Sebab die KLAKA SANGAT2


3. Sebab die penuh dgn sindiran yang mmg membuatkan kite terkesima dan terpikir


4. Walaupon luarannya nampak mcm merapu and serabut, tetapi penuh dgn hidden meaning yg sggh intelektual


5. Sebab shoot n guna BAHASA PERAK...
(awak org Perak!)


6. MAmat Khalid memang genius!!! Filem2 seperti Rock, MAn LAksa, Rombongan Che Kiah ke Komanwel, Zombie Xmengecewakan langsung! (Ini je filem die aku tgk)


7. Rase mcm mau tgk lagi!!!


8. Walaupon setiap kali KAk Limah keluar aku tutup mate (cuz aku tido sengsorg) tp nk gak tgk lagi cite ini!!! (aku xsuke tido sengsorg!!!)


9. Sangat2 sukekan watak si Usop bekas penari Kebudayaan itu!!!mmg mantap!



Sape belom tgk, sile tengok n support lah filem Melayu yg bermutu seperti ini!!! Xpayah nk ade keta2 laju, pompuan sexy...org kampung jek pon dah cukop bagus!!!

Saya Masih Disini

In a way, I should be grateful, right? Everything happens for a reason, and there must be a reason why I did not get the transfer. Now, for sure, 1oo percently, I know I will go on with the Master thing. Before this, I have doubts. Thinking what if I'm to be transferred to Penang or Kulim. Then it will quite far for me to go to KL every week.
But still I could not help but to shed a few tears. (more than a few actually!) I want to be closer to my father and sister. I hate sleeping alone at night (ok I now this is ridiculous;P)
The only thing that is making me ok here is my friends...
Other than that, NIL.


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Decisions

I don't know whether I am happy or not.

In a way, yes, I am happy. And I am lucky. Not everyone will got the chance.

But still, it's looking a little bit complicated here.

I want to be closer to my father. There is no doubt there. But it is not confirmed yet whether i'll get the transfer. What if i don't and all i do is to wait. I might be staying here for a verrry long time.I might get older without moving on, not doing anything worthwhile in this life? And if I refuse, and wait, I might not get another offer like this anymore.

But, am I ready for this? It will be hectic after this. And not to mention in financial wise. Obviously, I'm not ready in that area. But, when will i be ready if i keep waiting. KAN???

Owh, i wish someone can tell me what should do.

I wish someone can give me a good advice.

No.

I wish someone to make the decision for me.

So that one day I won't regret any of it.

Ya Allah, Kau berikanlah petunjuk pada hamba-Mu yang lemah lagi hina ini.

I Miss You

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera

What will be, will be.


This is a song my Mak used to sing for me. (in Tamil version of course).
I miss her. So much, that it hurts. It makes my heart ache. It makes me want to cry and never stop.
It's been a long time since someone hug me. I missed the warmth of her hug. Her sweet smell. In her hug, I know I'll always be safe.


I miss her.

Penang Bridge Marathon 2011, wait for me!!!

Me n Mas

Yeap, I did it. I managed to finish my 10km run in 1:42:51. That is something for someone like me! U know, not fit, beginner, not enough training. And I was only walking, though i walk non-stop.Yeah, that is something. I just exceed 12 mins 51 sec! And the best part is I'm not the last one to arrive! hehe...

Now, I'm excited to join more marathons. Hehe..even though my body ache all over (until now actually), muscles strain etc, but I still would love to do it! Though i'll practice and train more before going!

Going to Penang for the marathon is the moment i'll cherished always. There were a few doubting Thomas when I said i'm going for a marathon. It is quite funny when people are sceptical and so criticising for things even they don't do. Instead of saying 'mesti boleh', they were saying 'boleh ke'? Why?Just because i'm fat? That doesn't mean I can't do something at all! But I guess, that it is part of the fun kot??? People insulted you and you get the chance to show them wrong?

I would like to thank my friend and 'coach' Cik Mas for her support. Pas nie kite g lagi ye Mas :) Kenangan memori daun pisang meredah hujan sebelum nak marathon akan menjadi kenangan terindah. Walaupon not enough good looking guys for us to feed our eyes on (hehehe) but we still had fun! So much fun!


me after 7km...masih boleh tersenyum manja walaupon terketaq2... ;p


our beloved Lunarfly ;)

Now, I'm more excited to do stuffs. My resolution of doing things I've never done in my life still stands!

What is next?

i want to travel!!!

At late, the only thing that interest me is travel!Technically, aku tak travel mane pon lagi, but i really really reallllly want to travel, go to all those exotic places. A friend of mine, Cik Mas introduce me to a backpacker blog not to mention lonely planet!! (dgn malunye aku taktau lonely plaenet ade mags, slalu ingat kat tv jek!) and skarang, keje aku buka airasia n bercite2 nk travel around the world!Agak sukar untuk mengingatkan Miss FB supaye berpijak di bumi yg nyata..hehe..dahla duit dlm akaun Maybank xde kan (kalau nk beli tiket pon) n infact, she does not own a credit card!!
Adoi.....xde ke nak dapat cabutan bertuah menang 10 ribu ke??? (cukupla 10ribu, taknak banyak2 pon)...Ayayai!xpelah..selow2 dulu kn??(ayat sedap hati sendiri!)

My running bib no is K67093~

Running bib ape? you might ask. Well, I don't know whether i've mentioned here but resolution is to try things at least once in my life. And in 2 weeks time, I'm going for a marathon! Penang Bridge International Marathon 2010 to be exact!Am I up for it? NO! heehee :) I've started running (or walking to be more exact!) a couple of weeks ago and it is a torture!! After a long time of being lazy and FAT, my body; or more specifically my legs (ankle) are definitely having a hard time adjusting to this new routine. But I'm not giving up! Not even when I'm the last person to arrive! Hehe ;)

Well, I'm off to Taiping in few minutes. Did not plan to go back pon but I really miss my dad n my sister..Hehe..bile berjumpe gaduh..Bile jauh rindu :P

Why is it so hard for people to understand that I have needs as well.

Why some people have this kind of thinking where when they did not have something, I should not have it as well? I'm being impatient because I'm scared. What if I don't live to see tomorrow. What if there will be no chance for me to pursue my dreams. I just want to live my life. I am sorry if I'm not responsible enough. Or not responsible at all. I'm just tired living my life, waking up doing the same thing over and over. I am sorry that you don't understand me at all.

Why money must be everything???

I am physically and mentally exhausted.
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I hate this feeling. And I hate that person. Saye menyampah.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

i have no words~
later k :)

"Love someone who loves you." -If u love someone, let them go. If they never come back, they were never yours...

So i decided that I'm letting go this feeling.
Because I realized, it is just an infatuation.
And even it is love, I'll still let it go.
Because I think you deserve someone better.
And I deserve someone who is not afraid.
Because when you stop saying words to me.
And when I stop giving you glances.
So I decided maybe this is not real.
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So I decided that I'll pray for your happiness,
And in return hoping that you'll do the same
Because
It seems that
even though
we never speak with each other
Our hearts speak
and
decides
we should
let
go
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