Being Lonely

I need another story

Something to get off my chest

My life gets kinda boring

Need something that i can confess

Secret 'One Republic'

This is one of the self-pitying post. I just came back to Merlimau after 6 days break with my family at Taiping. And the only thing that creeping in my head is that 'I Hate It Here!' I feel so lonely even if I'm surrounded by many people. At home, eventhough it is just me and Dad, I felt happy and content.

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Or maybe I'm trying hard not to be lonely.

Maybe I just should live my life as it is.

I crave for adventurous and exotic life. (Blame it on all the novels I read)

Maybe I should accept the fact that my life is meant to be dull.

Fullstop.

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I want to quit job and travel the world.

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for many things

and I'm definitely happy that this someone won't be around for a month. Nyah kau...hehe..Anyway, my 'bestfriend' came for a visit this afternoon so won't be fasting for the next 7 days. So sad because I was so looking forward to go to Tarawih this evening. Xde rezeki :(

I was so hoping that my 'bestfriend' won't be coming like the previous year where I don't have to go through the hassle of 'ganti pose' :) I guess this is for being so 'blagak' kan?hahaha...

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Well, I want to wish all our Muslim brothers and sisters a blessed Ramadhan. Semoga Ibadah kite diterime-Nya. Amin.

WishList

Saye mmg banyak wishlist! Hehe.. I want a lot of things in life. And one of them is to play tennis! I don't know why tapi teringin sangat sangat sangat nk main tenis. How I wish I have someone to tutor me! Yep, sy nk blajar main betul2. Bukan suke2. Tp skrg rase mcm dh tua sngat kalau baru stat nk blaja. Huhu..

Thank You

I could not help but to notice that I have a lot of people who cares about me. Especially about my weight! Funny thing that I never really try to spend my day thinking about how fat I am. I have other people to do it to me. See how lucky I am? Sometimes, the way they say it out loud bring tears to my eyes because I was touched with all the concerns. For example : "Eh, boleh masuk ke?" "Muat ke?"

I mean, where else you can find this kind of concerns?

I am blessed and very grateful for it.

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~P.H.A.T gal out~

Kenapa Hari Ini Sudah Isnin?

I have nothing against Monday. It is coming to work on Monday after a very very very short break that I have problem with. I have 3 classes on Monday. And pepagi buta nie one class manage to increase my blood pressure. I was never that rude when I was studying at Uni. You don't say 'tertido' dgn selamba badaknya when you were asked why you were absent...If I were to write about the moral of our student (and people around us these days, sampai tahun depan pon xabeh).

My weekend was tiring but good. I was involved in konvo after all! Huhu.. Menjadi penghulur sijil atas pentas. Xcomel pon terpaksa men'comel'kan diri! Haha..And then after that went for a movie with a couple of girlfriends. Watch The Sorcerer's Apprentice. It was quite boring and tasteless for me.Hehe..If you were talking about magic, why must have science?And the ending was so like Dragon Ball. And the Apprentice mcm lalok 24/7. I love Nicholas Cage though! He is brilliant!




The next day went for another movie with the same girlfriends ;) This time around we watched Salt. It was good! Better than Apprentice for me! Walaupon bnyk unsur2 'x blei tahan' but still bearable. It is pretty 'amazing' that jatuh atas trak but all the bones are still intact. One thing I like is that I never anticipate who's the badass was! And I hope there will be no sequel. Hehe.. Let it be left mysteriously!



Panjang la ngomel harini... There are few movies that I really really want to watch! Takers, Airbenders, The Expendables, The Other Guys. Erm, sesape nak pegi tue, bawak lah saye..Hehe..Saye tak kesah!!!

Till later..Daaaaa..

(erm ade meeting pukul 12..^yawn^..one more reason why I hate Monday!)

P/S: Thanks to my girlfriends...you know who you are:) Lenkali kite buat lagi ok? Muaaksss...

XoXoXo

TGIF

Sampai juga hari JUmaat yg mulia ini. Been waiting for it since last Sunday..hehe..Tiap2 minggu pon macam itu.So, what MY plan this weekend. Kemas bilik yg dah boleh sorok dinasour tue..hehe..very unimaginative tapi nak buat cemane. My housemate is involved with the Konvo and this time around I'm not. Thank God for that.. ;) Nak tgk The Sorcerer's Apprentice but on hold first. Nak g ngan sape kan? Anyone care to join me? Made a plan with a girlfriend but not sure yet...Rase mcm nk makan Auntie Annie's pretzel yg celop dlm ceklat tue..Nyum...

Had fun with a few of my opismate yesterday. Buka puase sesame (tp saye xpose!)..Quite full after a plateful of Nasi Ayam Penyet Lampongan and a glass of ayer asam boi..Double Yummy! Thanks for K.Sha, Mas and K.Diha. Thank you for making me laugh so hard. Muakss..XoXo ;P

I don't know what happened but I was quite happy when I woke up this morning. Of course, the feelings does not last long but still, i like it. It feels like all my dreams are coming true and all I have to do is wait. Feels like it will be a momentous day for me. Hehe..MAinan perasaan je tu. But I like the feeling. Tak kisah la kalau xbetul pon. It just make me feel goooood :)

"Oh yes, the past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it, or... learn from it." (dukun citer Lion King cakap nie).. And he is right! At this moment, i'm running from something instead of confronting the problem.Ayayai...where my guts dude?

Saye Tidak Suke

Banyak benda yg tidak saye suke berlaku kepade saye. (terutamanya akhir2 ini)

1) Saye tidak suke masuk campur tp org masuk campur kan saye.

2) Saye tidak suke perasaan ini, tp perasaan ini hadir jugak dlm diri saye ini.

3) Saye tidak suke mendengar tapi telinga ini terpaksa mendengar.

4) Saye tidak suke membayangkan, tetapi bayangan itu hadir jugak dlm diri saye ini.

5) Saye tidak suke, tidak suke, tidak suke dan tidak suke.

Very immature of me.

I know.

Tapi nak buat macam mana. This is the real me. I'm stupid. Foolish. Selfish. Immature. Childish. Ugly. Fat/P.H.A.T ;)

Care to add anything?

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On a different note, a few days back, i wrote an entry called Cloudy days. Googled for cloudy pictures and post it here. But at night, when I open this blog, the cloudy picture turn into a weird man face!!takut i. n dengan segeranya mendelete picture itu. Walawei. My blog is haunted kah??? Jangan la..Kat mana lagi nk luahkan perasaan karang..

I really want to go back home and stay with my dad T_T Miss him so much and i know he would love to have me there. (ke aku yg prasan?)..

"Love looks not with the eyes but with the mind."

Hurm, i didn't know what to make of you.

One minute you are friendly and the next minute you give me the cold shoulder.

P/S: The heading is a quote from Shakespeare. Wise man he was....

Cloudy Days

To be honest, it was not a good day for the past few days.
It feels like a dark cloud always following me everywhere.
I wish things will turn out differently.
Words are left unspoken.
No hard feelings.
But i can't.
All it left is for me to move forward.
And try to make sure everyone understand why it had happened.
And I hope for that sunny day.

not feeling well

Alhamdulillah. I had an uninterrupted sleep last night.Haven't got a good sleep since the paranormal thing. But woke up with an uneasiness. I'm not feeling good and well at this moment. Feels like vomiting. My head feels so heavy. My stomach is churning.

Hurm..Mahu diri di manja boleh?