~Phase Of Life~

Usually, when we reach certain age of life, we automatically decided that we should grow up, be a more mature person then we ever been before, and be a better person. You know, not to involve with any kind of 'school drama' where instead of dealing with the problem, we run from it. Honestly, the first thing I've thought when I first started working is not to mess with anyone and not to let anyone messing with me. Unfortunately, it didn't happen. And it is funny when in 7 months, both my 'former' housemate move out without any sense of dignity and maturity. Hohoho, don't misinterpret me when you read that I managed to run out my housemates. I'm not some Madame Cruella here. I solely believe that I'm not the reason they move. It really doesn't matter whether they are moving out or not , but the way they doing it. Like some coward without any sense(again) dignity and maturity.And to exagarrate a small tiny miniscule problem.Funny..

It really suprise me when people manage to create a whole different story out of nowhere. But, I believe in everything happens for a reason: a better reason. All in all, I should say good riddance right?

So

now, it

just

me

and

Zati.

Praying to Allah S.W.T.,

hopefully

both of us can tolerate with each other and handle everything with maturity. Zati, don't worry, if ever i want to move out from the house,I'll mention it to you since you are sort of the landlady. Insya Allah.

~Funny isn't it, when you are licking your own spit. You asking the help from the very person you cursed and badmouthed. Tsk tsk.

Di Saat Tanganku Ringan untuk Melempang

Aku teringat pesanan PakCik Maidin:

Sabar,

Sabar,

Sabar

Oleh itu,

I'm trying to be patient here.

And remember,

you don't have to get involved with it.

You can ignore it because

it

is

bliss.

Trust your conscience.

You are here to work and mencari rezeki.

So don't let your focus stray.

ok

Miss FB??

What I'm Feeling Right Now...

What I'm feeling right now?

Crying my heart out.

Why?

When I first start here, I never thought it will be like this. I was full with enthusiasm, hoping that I will be passionate with my job and will face any challenges.

Unfortunately, NO. After 6 months, I feel like i've been crash and burnt. Tried to please everyone but end up getting myself hurt; and it is painful.

Can I just make a shout out and say :Tolong jangan buli saye?

Saya manusia biasa yang mempunyai hati dan perasaan. Mungkin luaran saya macam seseorang yang tidak kisah, tapi itu cara saya menutup kelemahan rendah diri saya.

I want to be alone

but

John Donne said

No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent.

Another Self-Pity Entry

Inas, this is the continuum of my feelings from last night message.

It seems that everyone that i know is getting engaged, married or pregnant. And no, there is nothing wrong with it. Of course I'm happy for them. By the way LInda, congratulation!! I still can't imagine you as a wife and now you going to be a 'Mummy'? So happy for you and seriously, I want to see your big tummy nanti k?!

So lets go back to my self pity. As much as I'm happy for everyone else, there is one tiny-not-so-tiny side of me could not help but to feel sad. As everyone is actually moving on in their lives, I'm still here, the same old, same old me. I feel that I'm standing staticly, not moving, just stay there like a statue and watch the world go by. What had happen actually?

Of course, it is not that i'm desperate to get married NOw!I want to have all the Mills and Boon and Harlequin's romances. Loves at first sights. Or trouble but end up living happily ever after. Go on a date. Have fights over something ridiculous but making amends with laughter later.

Is it wrong to wish like that?Or am I simply being ridiculously desperate here?Hurm..

~Thinks that imperfection makes one perfect~

Middle of the Week

I've been called "lurus bendul" and "skema" by one of the senior lecturer today. It's kinda funny actually. And sad as well. I mean name calling like that (in front of my face sumore!). It's not that I want show to people that I'm doing a great job or what-so-ever. Hurm. We are having a lecturer evaluation by the students and it is strictly forbidden for us to evaluate ourselves. Unfortunately, the lecturer who is supposed to evaluate my class thinks that my classes are so 'tinggi'(well, now you know how I feel-all the 3rd and 4th floors and no pounds were shedded). And now she want me to do it myself without mentioning it to anyone else. But what make me so 'angin' is the words she used. 'Lurus bendul' and skema? hey, I do live up with the rules are meant to be broken but come on..this is just a simple matter. Bukan nye every week you have to come to my so high classes pon...Seriously?Bukan nak mengajo pon!!!Jangan lah disebabkan awak saye yg terkantoi. Dahla Miss FB nie kalau nak buat something yg tahap mikro punye kesalahan pon mesti kantoi. Alahai..Sape nak tolong evaluate kelas saye nie???

Sekembalinya Diriku Ke Pejabat

Dang..Cepatnye masa berlalu and now i'm back to the office. Manage to get an MC yesterday because I'm sooooooooo tired.(and not in the mood to face people). Thought of sleeping the whole day but can't, unfortunately, because people kept calling me about minor details for the debate. Though i have to admit, i'm kinda good of becoming an operator. Should just change my profession because i really, totally hate my current job. ~lalaala~

As much as i love to indulge in my self-pity, life must go on.

EVeryone is talking about their raya break..Miss FB nak cerite pasal ape??? Letak gambar je boleh??Hehe..
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Gambar2 diambil di rumah Miss FB, Cik Inas n AYu.

Seronak jumpe kawan2 lama macam Dahlia,Wani n Dylla and yang tak berape lame macam Ayu, Dayah n my fellow blog comrade, Inas.

Menjelang Satu Syawal..

Few more days before we end this lovely Ramadhan...(eventhough there were some 'moments', but still lovely)..What I really looking forward to is to go home and meet Daddy and my sis. I have a few plans as soon as I reach my lovely Taiping :) Have plan to 'serbu' people house with my fellow Venus gal, eat my Dad superb prawn sambal ;p , meet a few friends, REST and not thinking about the debat tournament that will be held the week after Raya (aaarghhh!!!) and not thinking about my FRP (Fail REkod Pensyarah=Forever Resuming Pressure) and also watch The Ugly Truth and Final Destination 4.

Insya Allah. Pray for my safety. I'm going back tonight with the one and only: The BUs...It is kind of depressing to go to work when most of the gang in the opis oledi when back to their hometown. Even the bosses pon dah balik:(

...It is Ok...few hours more for me before I reach Tepeng...

Well, i would like to use this opportunity to wish Salam AidilFitri and Maaf Zahir Batin to those who stumble upon my humble blog here..Drive safely and have a blessed day with your love ones..muaksssss.

It's Only 11.08am

Defenitely not my day...Punch card merah arini..and only 1 minute late!!! arghhhh..the second one for this month..yours truly gotta be extra early la plak pasnie..

Then...my favourite new shoe terputus due to the stupid tiling renovation nie!!arghhhhhhhhh...It's NEW ok..If Najib xkasik bonus I'll be doomed cuz i need another NEW shoe!!!

And not to mention the pounding headache T_T


And now it is 11.12 am...urgh...

Kesejukan...

I'm so cold...

Besides that, i'm quite angry. What am i angry about? Let me list it out.

1. Sesampainya ke opis, keja macam banyak. Salah satunye kena key-in attendance budak kat pmis. Ianya satu sistem yang menyusahkan teramatlah sangat. Iye, seperti yang tersedia maklum, tugas seorang guru bukan lagi hanya mengajar, tetapi buat clerical work skali.

2. Facebook kena block. WTF? Kite kan hidup bermasyarakat. Macam mana kite nak menghubungi sesame lain dan mengetahui perkembangan semasa kan?kan?kan?

3. Arahan mengatakan kena berjimat cermat semasa print. WTF$%^&*833945^$%#)(*%$#%^WTF!!!!! Ini memang nak marah. Semenjak duduk dalam opis baru nie, boleh kire la baper kerat aku print. In fact, RM pon tak terprint lagi. Yang sebuk print nye manusia2 yang beeeeezzzzzzzzz sesangat itu.(manusia sama yang telah menghancuskan komp Miss FB di saat yang amat crucial and critical sampai Miss FB teriak a.k.a nanges). Xsampai selang 2-3 hari dah ambik ketas baru. Kerana manusia2 itu, orang lain terkena tempias..WTF!!!Aish..

4. Bebudak DSB1 yang perasan yang dorg tue bakal arkitek and think they can berlagak pandai with me!! Hello, setakat diploma tue toksah berangan tinggi arr.. (tiada niat to degrade anyone yang mempunyai diploma but only DSB 1 students)..Seriously, who they think they are? I have 7 other classes who can be respectful. Even my certificate students pandai respect orang. Walawei..bebulan posa buat aku sakit hati.


So ini adalah perkara2 yang membuatkan Miss FB angin ja...16 hari sebelum pulang ke kampung halaman terchenta.. Hopefully, no more incidents yang mcm itue kan pas nie..Chill Miss FB...

BerSyukuR

Miss FB bersyukur kerana:

=Induksi nak habeh dah (walaupon die malas nak balik Merlimau)

=Walaupon dia xdapat ramai kawan (sebab dia mengisolatekan diri macam biasa) ada juga la dapat 2-3 kawan yang banyak membantu. Contohnya Liza yang suruh Miss FB print asimen kat printer dia. Bella xpayah lah citer...She's my not so old friend who have been helping me much. If not for her, i'm defenitely Thomas Wilson, the recluse from The Lotus Eater

=Walaupon dia marah sangat2 kat penceramah yang kononnya kaunselor panggil orang mamak nie DKK=darah keturunan keling (WTF) tapi tidak menukarkan diri kepada Incredible Hulk sebab die menganggap penceramah tue BODOH(hah,kan dah kurang pahala pose)

=Walaupon xdapat nak balik lagi ke kampong halaman dan berpuasa bersama kakak ku Atom dan ayahku PakCik Maidin yang terchenta, die masih bergayut lama2 ngan dorang guna Celcom plan 5+1

=Walaupon selalu menganggap dirinya manusia paling xcomey,tapi bersyukur kerana masih boleh menunaikan puasa di bulan Ramadhan, masih boleh berkata-kata, masih boleh melihat (walupon agak rabun ;p ) masih boleh mendengar dan sewaktu dengannya. Kerana dia percaya pada sebaik-baik ciptaanNya

=Walaupon presentation Public Speaking induksi xbaper nak best, tapi skurang2nya tidak memalukan dirinya seperti yang biasa dilakukannya

=Walaupon balik Merlimau nie banyak kerja tapi dia akan melakukannya tanpa kompelin banyak2, tidak akan memperdulikan orang2 yang menyakitkan hatinya, bekerja bersungguh-sungguh supaya bos akan kesian dan rekomen dia balik ke utara. Amin

Banyak lagi yang Miss FB beryukur kepada Yang Maha Esa cuma....

Kengkadang Miss FB

lupa,

leka,

lalai dan

alpa.